justrun-.

aftermath

haha no, i didn't get to watch the perf on thurs. gah and neither can i go for sat's matinee and nite performances :( or else i'd def have bought tix... can watch melo and sal and get my much needed activity pt at the same time. heh. but it's mostly to watch the performance. i like our school's elds (:

but today is friday. it's like four plus pm. and it's def AFTER MATH! whee. no more techniques of differentiation for the next.. three days. lol. hope i didn't screw up math. damn la. been so friggin tired this whole week. i came back home frm training yestd, and all attempts to mug more math failed. so i just plonked myself on my bed, and fell asleep. haha. so tiiireeeddd! and that was like ..at TEN pm. so freaking early. but i think i should start sleeping earlier anyway. haha then slept through recess. yes, instead of eating and piling up on calories, why not SLEEP! ahah i should take more recess naps. yestd i slept through an hour of history. haha. slept before sch started as well. i seem to be sleeping all the time.. maybe my body's going into hibernation or something.

physics lab pract today was fun. we got to play with compasses and iron filings and MAGNETS! i swear, it's DAMN COOL. I LOVE THE MAGNETIC FIELD! physics is damn fun. and i want that iron filings thingum for my christmas present or something. ahha. this beats both the galileo thermometer and rheostat hands down! i think i have a fetish for physics lab pract apparatus. haha.

well today is friday. and tmr will be saturday. and then. SUNDAY. wahhh. haha i'm like waaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyy off form. this is the kind of feeling i usually feel when i haven't trained for a long time. and i've just come back. just started training again. ahha. what a stupid feeling. i think the anxiety has caused my body to react in strange ways. i.e the pimple breakout, the ear infection, the muscle aches that linger for longer than usual, the strained muscles, the asthma, the phlegm etc. so, SERIOUSLY. i will be quite surprised if i can finish the race on sunday. i'm having visions of myself collapsing midway. or drowning. or hyperventilating then falling off the bike. but i am currently trying to be ignorant cos ignorance is bliss. all previous hopes and dreams of doing a pb should probably be thrown into the bin. yes, actually all i wanted was a pb... too bad i'm in such a crazy state right now. i'm just scared that come sunday, when the race is over, i'm scared that i'll go into some major mental/physical/emotional breakdown. haha. picture that. further proof that i will screw up- a dream i had last night. and it was a most pleasant dream. we all know that dreams are supp to be the opp of reality. so i guess this just means that i'm so gonna screw up.

busy week next week. like REALLY busy. plus there's eng SA. shoots. haha i haven't even done any research. mmmmmmfff.

i've been unusually "zen" this week. i wasn't even panicking about math last night... haha only this morning. it's queer. okay i sound weird too.

TRAINING LATER. hmmmmm.

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

put on her shoes at [16:50]

and took [20060630] strides

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